ME!

Even though I'm positive Amber has given up on me!

Just back to rekindle a Ewan obsession, since I am now Boy-less..

yeh...


Look pretty!

So you know what I haven't done in decades?

AH SHAT SHUT UP VISTA! *postpones that silly update...*


Aaanyways, you know what I haven't done in decades? Made a post. I believe the last post I made was a very negative one regarding things that really shouldn't have bothered me (although they probably aren't bothering me NOW because I haven't seen or heard from the thing in errrrrr two weeks. Insert an "Ex Dee" here). So yes! It's post time everybody (Amber) Oh what to talk on... so many things. Lets try talking about what I've done for the past few hours...

Watched SXEphil on youtube! Why? Cause I like the guy. He's cute, smart, funny, and funny. And does the news. What more could one want! What else... Huh...

I have to currently use the lavatory and little Sammy the cat is doing annoying cat things like trying to step  on the keyboard and purring and things.

Perez Hitlon got punched in the face.

I love estrogen and Evra Patches because it's making me very, very joyous! How you ask when my risk of depression increases with use, or I have a high chance of weight gain? Or that I just ate two wraps and am now still awake at 4 in the morning? BECAUSE ... I don't know exactly... insert a "Rawfull Copter" here. 

What the dickens is a RoflCopter. It's fun to say, thats for sure.

Maybe it's the fact that I have been demoting "object" further because I assume when *it* gets back from... "code name boot camp" *it* will be "code word... erm brainwashed (okay not a code word)" and I'll just have to deal with the fact that *it* won't want to get near me without a marriage certificate. Ha I'm funny sometimes. And ya know what? I like being happy and funny! It brings me such joy.

  ROFLz:ROFL:LOL:ROFL:ROFLz
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LOL===            []\
 L    \______________\         *killzz cos roflcopters kant b friendziez*
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    |           *ZOMG a ROFLCOPTER EEEEFPH!* *iz killed*
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So I've been thinkin. I need a new layout and a new Icon. Why? Cause I'm bored.

Preferably a layout where I can make a nice little header for me. And a happy little icon (although mine is very happy anyways heheh Remy)

I'm gonna get on that right now weeeoooo I want a date PMS

I randomly saw a commercial for diapers and wondered if Jamie/Jordy babies would be ugly.

Amber, waddaya think? Ugly bebes? Not saying I want any now. Or stuff. Just curious. Hopefully they'd have his hair and eyes and not fatness. And my adorable nose.

ANYWAYS shat wtf is wrong with me

OH AND ZUNE TOUCH!

OWNED IPOD

I don't know what it is. But I'm... blank and dull...l and nervous for some reason. Maybe its that I have to go over to James's tomorrow and see his dad and stuff AH freaking out.

THE POPE AND HIS ALL KNOWING STARE @_@



*Furby voice* AH! Woorry...

And what if he hates me now? What if he doesn't like talking to me anymore BLAH I hate being worried.

I work with Di tomorrow so I'm more stressed out. She makes me actually DO things, and is very unspecific with the tasks she wishes to be completed. Erg...

Me no likey this random and unnessesary (not fixing that error) worry.

I'm pretty sure I gained back the six pounds I lost. FML.... seriously.. Eff Em Elle.

Chemistry and Math... worried... worried... haven't even started yet but worried.

Oh right, back to the title of m post, we got a new chihuahua, who's name is Lexi. But I call her "Piggy Piggy" and "Cuddle Piggy" and "Lexi Poop". And she's a little sweetie.

*Furby Voice* Hmmm Hmmm!... AH! Woorry.

I don't know what it is... but lately my dreams have been effed up.

A couple nights ago for example. 

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Garret drove a couple of us through this Jurassic Park place and we slept in a van with high tech stuff and dudes who wanted to kill the dinosaurs. Anyways, we found a cat and I had to save it cause it was an endangered species of cat. And then Garret crashed the boat and the cat was drowning and I had to save it and I tried and I think I gave is CPR. ... can't remember if it worked.

THEN me and the family swam in the river, and K.A. High was in the forest so I went there, and James Stringam was there. And something happened and I can't remember what.

THEN the family and friends were camping and our hottub was there and we were on my usual generic gray colored dream landscape and IN my dream I had a dream that I was prego and Luc was gonna deliver my baby in the bathroom and I REALLY didn't wanna have a baby and I was like WTF HOW AM I PREGO DID I HAVE SEX? I MUST HAVE! WAS IT GOOD!? I CAN'T REMEMBER! AH I DON WANNA HAVE A BEHBEH IT'LL HURT! Then I woke up in my dream from my dream next to a half sleeping (now walking out of the bathroom) shirtless Luc (EEEWWWW) and I came to the conclusion that Luc and I both sleep walked into the bathroom and slept there... hopefully (EEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWW)

TTHHHEEEEENNNNUH! I wandered outside to see YOU AMBER and Hailey and some hot Asian guys. And they randomly started posing for you guys with little peace signs and other Japanese stereotyped poses (like winks and stuff) and thought to my self HMMM THEY MUST BE USED TO HAVING THEIR PICTURE TAKEN. OR THEY JUST NATURALLY POSE FOR PEOPLE. Then you and Hailey squeed and started snapping photos and I awoke!


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So yeah. Big wtf there.

But thats not like the one were I had the dream about the random hot gay guy that I had never seen before ever who went straight for me and then asked me out WTF.
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OR THE NAP TIME ONE *dies* omgah!

So I was workin' at Stokes being bored and wearing a skirt (for some reason) and I look up and its REID! <3 And I die and then he asks me if I want to take a ride in his 09 Camaro and I'm like BXTCH PLEASE! OF COURSE!

So he gives me a ride home, and asks me if he can come in. Then I'm like "hmmm... probably not smart considering the fact that he was clearly hitting on me and I still like James. OH WELL" So I let him in, being idiot me, and immediately I am against the wall. NOT BEING RAPED THANK YOU! GAWD WHAT KIND OF MIND DO YOU THINK I HAVE *heheh* Anyways, amazing makeout session with Reid, and then I'm randomly aware that James is coming over.

SO I push Reid off, which was hard to do, and James bursts in and Reid is all "Dude. You're an idiot. Seriously. Stop cancelling on your girlfriend. Or I'll fill in her free time for you." And then James gave this heartwarming speech about how he ditched his stupid family for me and then Reid was getting pissed off and then he's like YOU WANNA GO BOY! And James was like BRING IT and I'm like NO THIS IS BAD .

Then I woke up wondering where the eff that dream came from.
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I think it's the prolongued sleep hours, starting at 3am and ending at 3pm. I think my brain just come up with random shit to pass the time.

Another thing I've noticed. I have been cursing in my writting. Whats that about? Blah whatever.

So yeah. I'm open to any explanations here by the way.

Hmm I don't want to shut up. Good thing is this is makin me tired. THANK. GOD. I need to fix my melatonin levels again. Effed up melatonins always messing with my groove. You screwed up my groove im sorry youve screwed up the emperors groove imm sorrryyyy falls out of window haaaaaaaaaa okay lost all interest in the capitals and punciation sorry youll have to live wiht it maybei ll keep typeing to see how long and i n can contniually go for maybe if i just randomly jeep typong any word in my head ill come up wht a fantasticall story about a dsih  and dthingsd baaaaahhhh ZZZZZZzzzz

I WANT A REID FROM THE BACHELORETTE!





Hehehe and maybe another Johnny



I love playing with coloring

OH story on the Reid pictures. Browsing around this site called sweetnsourtees or something AND I see little Reid, my favorite bachelor from the bachelorette! A fellow Taurus Amber. He's adorable. YEAH apparently he's a model for that site. Who knew?

So I'm pms and kinda horny. Just sayin. It sucks. Then again, when am I not?

UGH If Aunt Flow comes along while I'm camping I'll kill someone. Like myself XD So. Updates! Finshed school... one more final, which is Bio. And I don't care. YAY!

ALSO gonna see Transformers tomorrow... it's gonna be effing packed. UGH. We gonna die. We'll have to be there like two hours early.

AND CARS I WANT! Let's do this!

I want a really really expensive Cadillac. REALLY EXPENSIVE. In fact, I want several. Meh... I'm materialistic at heart. I like the most expensive things possible.


Like this one. It's completely electric. And shiny. *drool* It's a 2010 Converj


And this lovely little Coupe. Mmmmm 2010 coupe...


And of course, the lovely Camaro of sexiness. Yes. Cars are sexy. I'm one of THOSE girls. James needs to buy one of these.


An Audi R8... ugh... *drools*


OH Lamborghini Roadster... sexy...  yum.


Finally... this one is REALLY cool. BMW Gina. It's got a fabric skin... It is fricken amazing.

http://www.graphicmania.net/bmw-gina-new-auto-design-concept/

Check it out!

I'm sorry it's just I was just randomly watching on TV Josie and the Pussycats AND OMFG guess who the eff I saw in the opening scene!

hahaha I think this was his first film

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1jYMtEwDKRM

GOOOKKUUUUUU

Heh heh yeah remember when you said to be good? ...  uuuuuummm...

... aaaaanywaaaaays... bwhahah....

TILA TEQUILA NEEDS TO DIE! Gawd... how many times does she need to effing find love? I mean gawd it's not love if she's friggin finding it every five seconds.

Or maybe... love is indefinable? Maybe love is temporary? Maybe you love lots of people? Maybe you shouldn't be afraid to say you love people. Okay... then why am I so apprehensive to say this about ANYONE? Is it because I'd be labelled as neive? Okay from now on I love everyone. I can say it. So there. I'm now Tila Tequila. EWWWWWWW >_<

You know whats amazing? Being in a truck in the rain... with the radio on...

SORRY SORRY OFF TOPIC IT WAS JUST THAT I HAD A DREAM ABOUT THE EXACT SITUTATION LIKE A MONTH EARLIER AND IT WAS AMAZING DSFSDNGREKJH

Rant time.

Why the eff does Breana have to be such a  witch about everything. Seriously all I hear from her or about her is that she hates James and that I'm annoying. Ugh it's too much work to deal with immaturity. Fuck it. If she wants to be a bitch about everything for no reason then she's not worth it. She'd better watch it, cause the next time she calles James an asshole or dickhead or snaps on him for no fucking reason I'm gonna flip. Call me defensive but god I'm a taurus. You see Amber? This is why I love you so much. You can inderstand where I'm coming from.

Anyways I just made myself mad. Must go back to being positive.

Up was adorable.

I want a toned stomach.

I want to go clothes shopping.

I WANT TO GO BRA SHOPPING

... how do you get rid of hickeys?

I_I WHO SAID THAT?

Just like last year, as spring drew on I forgot about livejournal. Now... I remember it! WOOOO

So cha. Just a catch up for 20 year old me. Still dating James. Gone fairly far >:D ... confused if it's just chemicals reacting in my brain releasing too much dopamine and endorphines causing me too feel "passion love". Huh. That's saddening. I hope it's not just chemicals. Well we'll find out won't we?

Also! Still hate chem. Wooooo.

Took up running again and I'm finally down to 155! WOOOOOO!

Still scared to let James give me piggy back cause I'll kill him... or just pin him on the ground... heh heh...

OH lets put up my English photographs.

Nvm bad idea they no load.

Okay so bad dream one I had a while ago. Megan and I blew up these people in the lower level of a shop we were working in, and they splattered all bloody like. And there were bloody shoes left over. Then the ghosts of the dead people got pissed off and possessed Megan and Megan slit her own throat. So I crapped. And then spent the rest of the dream running. After a while and me bike riding in the mud and rain and the ghosts following me to my house and my mom being awkward cause she hadn't seen me in forever, the lower level of the shop was turned into a hydrogen bomb museum to show how bad it was. And I road the tram in with Amber and Hailey and I gave penies to the grave. But ate one and spit it out and realized I had disgraced them. Then they possessed Amber and Hailey and I woke up! So thats the first one.

SECOND! Last nights dream!

So I was a little kid, I can't remember if I was a boy or girl... and I was with a whole bunch of other little kids. Like seven. And there were these older kids and the older kids told us a scary story and while they were telling us we became the kids in the story. All the lights in the hotel went off, and us kids were outside, lookng up at the huge tall building. Then we saw our parents being pushed out of the building and falling down onto the ground in front of us. DEAD! They all died! I watched the little kids cry while their parents died! And I was terrified!

Then Lucas's plane was on top of a huge tall building where it was windy. So we all had a pic-nick on the building. And I was chicken and wouldn't get into the plane. BUT I was going to blow off the building and fall! Then I ran to lock the door in my own house before a cat got in. Then I was smelling insence sticks... they all actually smelled good. Then I heard either my voice or someone elses voice telling me not to panick and think logically, and calm down because it was just a dream. 

Then I woke up!


...Now I'm going to James's tonight... ah...

James asked me out.

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Agh,

Chem... no. He will fail me. I know. You know why? Because I'm lazy. I do NOT deal well wish pressure. I have a headache from it, and I can't deal with constant put-downs everyday. Can't. Deal. With. It.

Well, I'm posting because this little skit is awesome.

http://www.traileraddict.com/trailer/new-boy/short-film

ALSO

Billy got third place on True Beauty. Cause he's a babe.

My eyes are messed up. I used to think they sucked. Now they're just weird.



The pupil isn't centered, and it's like slate grey and moves into... honey orange brown? Whaaaat....

Just posting about my eyes today...
AND! My color is shared by my father! Oont Brother!




Except mine are less orange.

BUT! Oh look! Another human with these odd eyes!! I don't know this person.


They're just... shinier and the pupil is centered.


Okay, also. Something that made me laugh.

Christian Bale's actual spaz on set turned into a song. HAAHAHAAH I LOL'S ALOT!

Anyways... feeling anxious again. It's almost sleep time hence anxious... : |


Night

The little ad to the right of the "post an entry" box is an ad for modcloth.com. It has the pictures of the little tokidoki cactus pup things! I want one!



CUTE!

Ok so here's my issue. Remember how I'm an individual with histrionic tendacies? What if I'm a pathological liar too! O_O;; I have issues. Of course I probably only think that because I'm a pathological liar!

This is from wikianswers. And excuse me for just posting about this right now but I'm trying to distract myself from everything.

"Pathological liars, or "mythomaniacs," may be suffering from histrionic personality disorder or narcissistic personality disorder."

1. Exaggerates things that are ridiculous.

2. One-upping. Whatever you do, this person can do it better. You will never top them in their own mind, because they have a concerted need to be better than everyone else. This also applies to being right. If you try to confront an individual like this, no matter how lovingly and well-intentioned you might be - this will probably not be effective.

3. They "construct" a reality around themselves. They don't value the truth, especially if they don't see it as hurting anyone.

4. Because these people don't value honesty, a lot of times they will not value loyalty. Their loyalty is fleeting, and because they are insecure people, they will find solace in confiding to whomever is in their favor at the moment.

5. They may be somewhat of a hypochondriac. They can claim that they have been sick, or that there's some mysteriously "illness" that has them all stressed out.

6. Obviously, they will contradict what they say. This will become very clear over time. They usually aren't smart enough to keep track of so many lies.

Other Tendacies Include:

 

• Lies when it is very easy to tell the truth.

 

• Lies to get sympathy, to look beter, to save their butt, etc.

 

• Fools people at first but once they get to know him, no one believes anything they ever say.

 

• May have a personality disorder.

 

• Extremely manipulative.

 

• Has been caught in lies repeatedly.

 

• Never fesses up to the lies.

 

• Is a legend in their own mind.

Does it sound like me? Although you would never know if it was me because I would just lie about it! Lies and Slander!

Also my B.M.I says I'm obese.

The word "apricot" is stuck in my mind tonight, and I don't know why. Hmm. I can't even recal what an apricot looks like right now, let alone what it tastes like. I'm thinking... an orange?

Why am I talking about apricots... maybe because I'm stressing about semester two starting off tomorrow. And crazy Jesus-looking teachers. Instert a whimper here. I'm also stressing about rediculous things that are stupid to stress about. I think I will know what I'm talking about at a later date.

Since when did all the DVD and "comming soon" movies have the dates they come out posted as a border on top of the trailer? Confused...

I bought Full Monty... O_O

Should sleep now.

That's right! I watched it today and laughed ALOT! It seems as though once you listen to alot of Scottish people in movies, you can understand them a bit better!

He's going for the Full Monty!!! XD

Yep, it was amazing. XD


Ok I feel fat today.

I wish I were. Apparently our little Renton here wishes he weren't.

Bwuahah Billy on True Beauty was being a boob. Oh well he's a babe.


Ewan Mcgregor's (Renton's) rant on being Scottish


Ok, I should say I watched this movie, loved it (again) and then decided I can't understand a word they said! HAHA

I have nothing to blab aboot. :}

How about the intro to Trainspotting?

Choose Life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol, and dental insurance. Choose fixed interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisurewear and matching luggage. Choose a three-piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pissing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked up brats you spawned to replace yourselves. Choose your future. Choose life... But why would I want to do a thing like that? I chose not to choose life. I chose somethin' else. And the reasons? There are no reasons. Who needs reasons when you've got heroin?

YAAAAAY Another Hottie of the Daaaaay! I love my fake awards. They give me purpose.

Naaaah I'm just joshin'. I know I have other purposes. Wow that tea is a mood elevator!

Ok so, background on our hottie of the day. He is currently on the show "True Beauty", the show that judges people on their inner beauty as well as outer beauty. And may I say, he is beautiful. I say inner and outer...ly. Because he's polite. I don't care that he's OCD about protein shakes, or that he got mad at the chick because she answered the phone to blab to her boyfriend (come on, who wouldn't feel awkward), he's awesome. Oh yes, forgot to add he's a Chippendale's dancer!!!! AHHHH I'm such a disturbed youth!! I want to go hire him. Someone hire him for my birthday! Ladies and Gentlemen, mostly ladies, may I introduce to joo, BILLY JEFFREY!

OH MY FACK>
HE'S SERIOUSLY ON FACEBOOK FOR REALS!!!!!!!!! WTF!>>!W!>@$@?#R#@$T$#
(proof, its on the bar to the left. FACEBOOK!)
If I were a serious creeper I would add him as a friend... O_O....*ponders* Nooooooo.... I wouldn't.








Amber. Buy me the Chippendales calender XD
I need to sleep. Social tomorrow.

You know, I've said so many times that I prefer brunette guys over blonde. But I repeatedly go for the blondie-blue eyed ones! Weird.

Yes indeed, he did. I gotta say, I never thought it would really happen.

Ugh. Why do I blog? I know we're all going to blow up in ... what is it? Three years now? Oh well, maybe if I post THIS
then whilst I'm watching the world explode I can laugh. At a simpler time, where Craig Ferguson joked about sexy teens and being creepy <3! Yay funny creepy scotish guy!

Oh yeah. Bella doesn't like the mirror upstairs... she sees things in it.

Now I'm sure the grudge glob will come after me!